Sudarshan Kriya

Now i really had to document this one, not just because my "Art of Living” tutor Ms/Janet De Cruz had advised us to, but rather to stand as a witness to my
1-Non assertiveness
2-Lack of spirituality
3-Narrow minded(ness)
My fellow Indian colleague(and i want to stress on the fact that i claim to have an open mind;p)held a discussion with me few months back on life and other issues.
From which i assume he detected that i am desperate(very true) and i needed to take a spiritual course in life.
Anyway Murali (that's his name) kept advising me to take part in art of living course?!!
I had no clue about that and definitely no intention to attend.
He kept nagging and i kept refusing mm no finding excuses.
Anyway, i ran out of excuses and being non assertive especially when it comes to a sweet fellow like Murali i agreed to pay AED 750 and attend this course.
Ok to start with i was the only Non-Indian in this course. What to do?
The course is about the technique of breathing and its importance to the human mind and health in general. It could be true but how did Sre Sre Ravi Shanker( the founder of this thing) come across this idea?
The answer is he started meditating at the age of four...OOOOOOOOOK!???!!!
Back to the contents of the course mmm besides the breathing there are the teachings of the Sre Sre of accepting people and situations, being peaceful, forgiving, reaching out..etc these are actually extremely nice values that i could never learn in 6 decades let alone 6 days.
I am not the accepting type, i get angry over the stupidest things, i never reach out.
Though i have to admit i forgive easily but that is probably because i forget easily( in other words early Alzheimer symptoms)
Bottom line ok i might TRY to commit to the breathing stuff all the pranayas and sudarshan kriyas etc...though i don't commit to anything easily.
But i could not believe in the non-abstract, the divinity of human beings, the love that is surrounding us.
I lack spirituality, maybe to attend this course you gotta be a different person, less complicated, less doubting, more open-minded to non conventional stuff.
And yeah no. 4 this proves how bored I am, i am open to try anything out of boredom.
Hope life gets better in the near future.