I hate packing !!!

i remember the times when packing was a fun activity.That was in the good old days.
Back then packing was associated with a vacation.Travelling was and still is my favourite hobby.
After the move to the UAE suddenly packing became a horrible experience.
Not just because the excess of any exercise makes it loose its appeal and makes it somehow boring no sir that's not it, it's because it was not associated to fun anymore.
It was either me packing in a haste to catch some plane home because of some unpleasant circumstances, or packing filled with sorrow as i was leaving mom and friends to go back to the UAE.
I still remember mom's filled with agony question whenever i come near the luggage: Will you start packing?
Even more dreadful than packing is packaging or moving.
Gosh how i hate these boxes.
The site of an empty apartment filled with selotape, paper, bubble paper is so sad.
How happy or sad you were during the time you spent in this apartment makes zero difference. Both cases awful.
It seems like all the years and memories you spent/have there are packed in some serialed boxes.
Each item in there means something to you ..but not to the movers who treat it with utmost indifference and raise eyebrows when you make a fuss about a small wooden frame which couldnt cost more than EGP 10/-.
It's true moving comes along with new beginnings but it also puts and end to a chapter maybe more of your life..
Well that's how i feel about packing now and i don't think it will ever change...
As for the moving one could look it at it both ways i mean it could be a happy or sad excerise depends on the kind of person you are ....
If anything am not the optimistic one right now i hate packing and moving!

What a mess!!!

A FB colleague posted the following question: What is the thing that annoys you the most now?
Many things annoy me ofcourse ut i never tried to pinpoint the thing that annoys me the most...
Right now my mind is as cluttered as my closet...many stuff lying everywhere and trying to find an item seems like a mission impossible.
Anyways, this guy's question made me search harder in the closet i mean in my mind and the answer came out even more annoying than the question...it's the person that is supposed to be the closest to me"MY FATHER".
It's not missing my mother, my boss, the miserable job, the bad financials, cairo traffic it's my dad
Yes it's an annoying discovery...has he always been annoying me? NO
Was he always such a jerk? NO
Is it old age, my mother's death? Possible..
Could it be me?
Even more annoying...i cannot forgive him letting her die...it should've been him instead. at least this is what i always expected...he failed me..unknowingly
I know i have no right to think this way, i know i should be patient after all he's old and my father...i can't help it though no matter how hard i try.
The mere daily phonecall is a dread..a charade ..he's not attempting even to patch things up...what to do? It's getting messier by the day and Yes Wissam now i've learned life ain't easy...
At least not for me.